Playtime is over, time to get back on track

Ever since I detached my emotions, I have lost motivation. I stopped informing myself in politics, sciences, education, health, animal rights, and the economy. I pretended as if those issues never existed and became oblivious as everyone else. I wasn’t involving myself in the community. I no longer tutor kids, plan community service events, present about gang violence or other activities I used to do. I hoped someone would take my place while I partied. I wanted to be controled, told what to do rather than the leader. I let others talk, while I listen with no opinion of my own. I didn’t want a voice, I wanted to hide. What I really wanted was to forget. Forget who I was when I had emotions. Forget. Forget. Forget. I wanted to live in the moment for once, not the past. I’m done hiding, I realized that I am capable of so much more than what I am currently doing and I know that I can do it because I had done it numerous of times before.  I want to return to who I was before, except I won’t be living in the past this time. I will be living in the moment and actually L. I. V. E