February 2012
12 posts
johnk808 asked: nice blog, i feel like a creep reading all your posts but they are interesting. :D not to mention you are very pretty
jhul3z asked: Youre interesting. i like how personal your blog is. its a relief compared to the rest of the forever alone whiny immature people on tumblr. how old are you?
Valentines Day?
Just any other day, I don’t really care for it. I don’t celebrate it even when people try asking me, I usually reject the offer. Not because I’m a bitter bitch, I just don’t believe that a day should determine how you treat others. In that case, shouldn’t everyday be Valentines Day? Therefore, it is another normal day. In any case, I don’t understand why some...
Take this as my vow and I’ll bring it to my grave. I will never let myself become dependent on money where I would have to stay with a guy to survive. No Thanks. I will always have a plan B, if things did not work out then I would want to be able to support myself. I never want to feel like I need to stay in order to survive. I want to buy my own house, pay my own bills, food, and everything...
You know, who you are. (:
You know, it used to hurt a lot. I used to cry. My throat would burn and my heart would drop but you know what? It doesn’t affect me anymore. That’s when you know I’m really over it, when I don’t feel anything while looking at those pictures. It’s a normal feeling that I would get when I see any other photo. There’s no need to get me jealous by writing comments...
xo-cindy asked: I fall in love with you more and more every time I read a new post your write. You are a truly inspiring and beautiful person. This world needs more people like you.
The question is, when? When will I be able to see my family again? When will I be able to travel to Vietnam and see my family? I get homesick sometimes, mostly during holidays that are meant for family occasions. My parents are always at work and I don’t really have many family members over here. I want to see my cousins grow, laugh with my aunts, and hang out with my grandma. I don’t...
I want to be that person that loves. I want to love everything such as life, work, kids, animals, and I want to give. The only problem with loving is that I will probably endure hate. That’s probably why I avoid my emotions; I don’t want to consume hate. I don’t want people to take advantage of my kindness and utilize it for their own benefits. The chances of that happening, is...
January 2012
16 posts
I been reading my old dairy for the past few days, I realized that I should never try to forget what happened. Instead, I should remember it, accepted that it happened, and not allow it to haunt me. I realized that this whole time, I been shutting myself off in order to protect myself. I felt resentment and I would do anything to avoid my emotions. While I was reading my entries, it was hard to...
Playtime is over, time to get back on track
Ever since I detached my emotions, I have lost motivation. I stopped informing myself in politics, sciences, education, health, animal rights, and the economy. I pretended as if those issues never existed and became oblivious as everyone else. I wasn’t involving myself in the community. I no longer tutor kids, plan community service events, present about gang violence or other activities I...
Real Shit Though.
The natural looking, casual dressed girls are just as bad as those who wears make up and dresses up. Don’t let appearance deceive you. Get to know her.
I keep myself entertain because I know that when I am completely alone, I can hear your voice in the back of my head. Asking me how I am doing, my progress and as of right now, I don’t want to think or answer it. I don’t want you nor do I want to commit to anyone else. I want to have fun and enjoy the moments
I never regretted meeting nor falling for him. I consider myself lucky to have met someone who has changed my life into a 180 degree. I’m grateful to have experience such pain and betrayal; they had built the greatness defense against assholes.
There’s a war taking place inside of me at this very moment, one side wants the world to see my true capability and mindset while the others wants to suppress it and to enjoy the moment. Sometimes knowing nothing is better. The stupid actions people make, won’t annoy you. I feel as if I am getting rather old and drained. Once, there was a time where I had let the world witness the...
“Getting use to waking up everyday and not...
My heart, mind and soul unlock itself when I am vulnerable. My thoughts are in depth and writing is at its best when I’m drowning in my pool of emotions. Suffocated, trapped with no way out… that’s when everything unleashes itself. I haven’t opened myself for a long time. I have been sharing more laughs than tears. I disconnect my soul, my inner self by connecting with...
It’s like waking up from a dream and wondering if it had happened. Every phone call that I had received from a friend in need, crying to me about their struggles, the pain they are enduring, and in need for advice, has made me wondered how did I put up with the pain. It had me thinking, “Why did I stay?” of course, I knew the answer then. Now, it is all a blur. Everybody is going...
It is always the ones who has never hit rock bottom, that are quick to judge others and take things to the ass. Not every single person is going to attack you by a simple blunt remark. Some people take things too personally and get butt hurt over it. Grow up and learn how to adjust to the situation by looking at it in different views. Maybe that person wasn’t attacking you; it’s...
December 2011
12 posts
Disgusting! Absolutely disgusting! The moment you fellas open your mouth, you degraded your physical appearance. Some fellas are attractive when they don’t talk, the way you think is a turn off. You probably look grown but mentally, you need to grow the fuck up. Manhood isn’t about the numbers of females your dick has entered, it’s about respecting the numbers of pussy offered to...
There are two types of girls in the world. One that plays the game and the one that avoids the game. I, for one, get even. Come with me with bad intention then best believe that will backfire at your face. However, if you come with good intention then best believe I will do the same. There’s no trick to it, you get what you deserve. I am not playing you, if I told you that I play others who...
In Reality.
If you could have everything you want the way you are today, then you should already have it! That is like saying, you are doing the same thing repeatedly while expecting a different result. Obviously, change needs to happen if you want to achieve your dreams.
Sometimes I have to do it on my own, don’t try to restrict me when I’m testing the water. What might not work for you might work for me, don’t limit me. If I fail, then I will own up to it. Have faith in me that I know what I am doing. I’m moving to a different career path, it is a risk but I want to see where it carries me. It does me no good if I’m still doing the...
Excited for winter break
I’m excited for winter break to come! I get to see all my friends again! Those that are well knowledge on the arts such as, drama, photography, dance and music. I don’t get that a lot with my classmates or co-workers; they wouldn’t know good form or technique if it hit them. I miss talking about productions and what not. It used to be apart of an everyday conversation until I...
Money Ego
Making money is one thing, but it’s another thing when you get cocky about it. Don’t degrade others with your success stories, just be humble about it. It doesn’t make you a better person if you are walking around thinking your the shit, if you can make money then you can afford some personality. It disgusting that we are in the same company because your behavior reflects upon me...
It’s hard to express something when people are in denial of its existent. I don’t blame them, if I didn’t have this ability I probably wouldn’t believe it either. Let’s see…How can I even put this into words… I am always a couple of steps ahead of myself because I sense something that doesn’t exist in the present moment. It could be a good thing when...
I know that...
It is over when I have nothing left to say or wish to say. When I think of you, I see my past. I don’t see my future. When I picture myself right in front of you, I have nothing left to say. It’s not even anger, betrayal or bitterness. Time just decided to carry me off my feet by allowing me to hang out with my friends and the strangers I just met. Time gave me the opportunity to mend...
November 2011
15 posts
When it comes to friendship, I cherish that shit. I put my friends before any guy and I’m always down to give them a hand. However, I’m not someone who will show appreciation, don’t take it personal but I lost trust in everything. I’m afraid to show my emotions because people might take advantage of it. I’m not saying that’s going to happen but from that...
I said this once but apparently, I didn’t make this clear. It doesn’t matter how close we are, if we’re best friend or not. If you decide to walk out of my life, that’s on you. I’m not going to beg you to stay; I won’t fight for something you decided because if we were real friends, you would stick around. When I said that I don’t care if you walk out the...
How do I feel?
I am not sure, emotionless. Empty and at a lost for words. I miss my comfort zone, even through I forced myself to break out of it for years now and once I did, I miss it. I feel as if I am walking backwards as I try to progress. I can be honest, I don’t know what the hell I am doing, and I’m walking blindly into the woods hoping to get somewhere, anywhere better than...
I’m not sure what came over me, but something clicked and made me realized that I have been isolating myself for way too long. I used to be that girl who partied every weekend to 5 in the morning. I used to party hop to at least 3 functions every night. I knew all the party host and got the hook ups to everything. Dang, all of a sudden, I stopped everything and went MIA for 3 years. I...
I want to give up and walk backwards, it was easier being a bitch to everyone I knew. It was easier not communicating with others; it was easier living in my own little world. Where it was my family, close friends, and my organization, now I’m trying in include my co-workers, clients, old friends, classmates, and those who don’t even play a role in my life. I want to give up on...
As much as I resented all the actions that you have done to me, I pity you. I really do. I should feel like you deserve your karma, but that is not how it is. I feel bad that you cannot fulfill the future that you wanted. I despised the damaged you had done to me but when I take a glance at a life in your shoes, knowing the struggles you went through before that, I feel awful. I had always wished...